This is making me happy. It’s…wibbly-wobbly. <3
Also. Housing and roommates for next year. I DUN KNOW WHAT TO DO. Help me.
Last semester I sorta-kinda-not-really talked with a few girls I dance with about possibly living with them. Sorta-kinda-not-really. I was planning to apply for being an RA in a cottage, and I told them if I got it, they could live with me. But then I didn’t apply after all. Idk if they are counting on living with me or not.
Then two days ago my roomie and one of her friends said they wanted to get an apartment and wanted me to live with them. I didn’t say yes, since I didn’t know how it all was left with the dance people, but I said I would def be interested as long as dance people don’t think I am living with them.
Then yesterday Becca (girl from Tolkien Lit, Doctor Who fan, fellow nerd, awesome) stopped by my room to say hello and we ended up talking for like an hour and a half and then going to dinner together, and she said she has no one to live with next year and I was like…I don’t wither…I have several options but I haven’t told anyone yes yet…and inside I was like YES YES YES PLEASE I WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU YOU’RE AMAZING AND I LIKE YOU A LOT! She said she would be up for living together (she currently doesn’t have a roommate because of things happening). Idk where – we’d prolly get an apartment, in which case I think we’d need two more people? idk. Anyway.
So now I don’t know what to do. As much as I love dance people and wouldn’t mind living with them, I see them like…literally every day of the week anyway XD And as much as I like my current roomie and her friend, and realllllllly appreciate the offer to live with them…I would love to live with Becca because she is very interesting and nice, and I would love to get to know her better, and we have really similar interests and things (minus the dance stuff on my part), and she has no one to live with, and she’s very cool (and for some reason she thinks I am awesome, which I still can’t quite fathom). She is also a bit intimidating, though, because she’s very outgoing and talkative and brilliant and I’m like…not any of those things (except brilliant. I’m totally brilliant. *egotistical nod* …but not as brilliant as her).
So. I dun know what to do.
Because I stink at saying no to people, and I would feel bad telling dance people I’m not living with them if they were counting on it, and I would feel bad ditching my roommate, and I would feel bad leaving Becca to shift for herself, and I would really like to live with her but we would still need more people anyway, and I would feel bad ditching my roommate, and I would feel bad ditching dance people, and…
Someone tell me what to do.
Gracious. I think college needs to teach a class on telling people sorry, but no. -_-
HELP. MAKE MY LIFE CHOICES FOR ME.