more NaNo

short post because NaNo.

But this was incredibly amazing and I felt like sharing it for those other writers of you who aren’t doing NaNo (or who are and aren’t on the site and thus don’t get the pep talks in your inboxes) or for those non-writers who wish they were writers.

actually, I don’t think there are very many people who read my blog who aren’t doing NaNo. XD well anyway.

I realized why I am so frustrated with myself and my writing: I’m not giving myself a chance. I feel like I have to be good at it, right now, to prove it’s ok for me to major in it.

But the truth is, I didn’t start doing any sort of creative writing until Sophomore or Junior year of highschool *can’t remember which*, when I took CW with Ms. Gaines (best. teacher. ever.). That is a record of three or four years ago.

I’m not a good writer. I don’t know hardly anything about creative writing. Maybe my use of language is good, because I have been playing with words since I was tiny, but my knowledge of the technique and methods behind creative writing is not there.

And I know literally nothing about novel writing. I’ve never actually had a real class on it (and yes, I am saying CW class didn’t teach me much about writing a novel – it taught me that I personally CAN do it, but there wasn’t much instruction, at least when I took the class, on how to actually…go about it correctly, or in a way that won’t leave you with a junk heap.)

So duh I’m not going to be good at it.

But that’s not the point. And it’s totally ok. Because you don’t get better if you don’t practice. All the horrid failures of novels or started and unfinished stories I have been producing over the past few years since that CW class are steps in the right direction.

And I have my entire life ahead of me for those steps to reach the finish, and for me to learn how to really write.

So it’s all good.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to get back to producing more junk writing. Practice makes perfect. =)